I move in a five days.
I feel ready.
I need to leave.
It is time for this little birdie to leave her nest.
I have been through an emotional roller coaster and I have to get off!  I need to just leave- remove myself from this situation and start anew!

I like the purple bag of Skittles the best-
I want to become a pro at in-city driving.
I HATE when people try to predict my life, it makes me want to prove them wrong.
I want to get a degree.
I wish the trampoline wasn't broken, I would sleep on it tonight.
I heard thunder- maybe I won't have to work. . .Then I could go watch my sister's volleyball game!
I'm going to miss my sister!
My heart feels like it is sinking into my gut- blah I don't like that feeling.
I want to drive to Provo and talk to a dear friend!

I like to record things- Memories, thoughts, dreams, thoughts that I dream about making into memories!
I treasure the things I have written, and I hope that some day those who come after me will too!
I have often asked myself what it is that I will enjoy reading the most. . I use to just broadly write down what I did each day.
  Example: Today I woke up, ate breakfast, brushed my teeth. . . .
Who cares enough to read that I did those things?  I looked through one of my first journals and pages like that bored me to death - so I started writing down major events.  I like reading how I thought, the way I saw things - when I grow up I want to learn about me all over again!

(outside the clouds are rolling in! please stay!)

I like to take pictures of the sun, it is almost heavenly in a sense.  When sun beams touching the earth- it makes me happy!
I believe in Sunday Drives.  I drove for an hour and a half with my gas light on- probably not the best idea, but I wasn't worried. . .
I hate when people watch me take pictures.
I love when the irrigation ditches flood- I think it is beautiful!
I want to get a motorcycle when I grow up.
I can only sing church hymns and sound decent, I wish I could really sing, but unfortunately I am pretty sure I have ruined my voice.
I chased migrating geese that stopped in a field to take a break.
I walked through fields of grasshoppers yesterday and it hurt me- I was hit in the face, legs, hands!  Some may feel grossed out by that, but it took me back to my childhood.  The neighbor kids use to come over and we would catch grasshoppers in the weeds outback for hours.
I had a throbbing headache.  I don't know why. . . It hurt though-
I thoroughly enjoy August.

(sigh) clean.

It's the end of summer- and I'm spring cleaning!
Ah!  Relief!
Cleaning and I have a love hate relationship.
I hate being stuck inside all day. . . and cleaning does take me all day.
I love finding the treasures of my childhood that are still dear to my heart!  I love getting lost in the memories and the feeling of being organized and well. . . clean.
I have currently been sleeping on the couch for the last two and a half weeks.  (I do have a comfy couch- I'm not complaining!)  My room was in complete dishevel and I just let it go.
Today I'm finding my bed.  I have "hand-me-downed" over half my closet and thrown away flip-flops that are pretty much rotted out (I don't know why I kept them. . . )
I had a problem with keeping everything!  I say "had" because I'm getting better at letting go- and moving on, and it feels good!

. . . I'm moving. . .soon. . .
Gosh my summer has flown- I need to get [another] job.
Cleaning has been my first eye opener, I'm not going to be living here anymore and I don't know how to feel about it.  What should I be feeling?
I talked the night away with one of my dearest friends.  We picked sunflowers, walked across cement barriers and got lost in the skies.  Another one of those realizations set in- you know the ones when you realize that things can never be the same, this moment will be lost forever after this. . . I was heart broken.
I am not going to be with anyone I know- I'm going to be the new kid, I've never been the new kid before.  At the same time however I get the chance to be whomever I want to be- I have the opportunity to be Kelsie and that is all.  No one will know where I come from, what accomplishments I have had, or the failures- I'm just me.  This a chance for me to see who I can become, how far I will go and there is for me to conquer in the world unknown.